Tag: grief
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The Good Death
CW: homicide, violence, grief I haven’t posted here in over a week, ahh!!! Bad Megan! I did do a few patreon posts about how ptsd has been showing up for me, and about how my mom’s murderer might get out in 2025 and how that’s affecting me. Oh, and I also found her hospital papers…
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Early Grief
Cw: grief & violence. Last night I got so depressed trying to write a little something about inner child healing. I decided not to write it at all, and got no words in yesterday. I ended up just really missing my mom and worrying I’ll never be able to tell her story or do her…
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I wish my trauma made me more badass…
I have always tried to make my vulnerability, my sadness, and my sensitivity my super power, but I’m tired, ya’ll! I would much rather be an ass-kickin baddie like Shauna who can scare anyone and really knows how to get shit done.
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Tiny Beautiful Things
CW: homicide, loss, grief. Last night I was soooo happy to see Tiny Beautiful Things streaming on Hulu. I absolutely adore Cheryl Strayed’s work since I read her memoir, Wild. It talks about the loss of her mom and the incredible grief journey she went on. Some of it hits too close to home for…
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Not ready to let go…
cw: my mother’s murder, murderer info. Hello again! Yesterday’s post was on Patreon, so members got to see that, if you’re not a member, what are you waiting for? You can join my patreon for as little as $1.11 a month which grants you access to all the exclusive posts I’ve ever written since 2020,…
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PTSD Triggers
CW: Trauma, homicide, ptsd. This morning was spent on the phone making dr’s and neurology appointments for my partner. I love making phone calls, but it’s always such a hassle dealing with insurance. I also did some work tasks and was motivated to write! Go me!
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I’ve got a big heart, and I’m not afraid to use it…
So, Mother’s Day just passed. I hope everyone had a neutral day at the very least. If it was great, even better! For me, it’s a tough day… which is to be expected for someone who is both Motherless and Childless.
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Who is your anchor?
I’ve been thinking a lot about my mom as an anchor. Someone who tethered me into this world. When I didn’t know who I was, I could always look to her and be reminded. She knew me since before I was born, but she really knew me. You know some other people aren’t really seen…
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Merry & Bright
My girlfriend and I got a very small Christmas tree and displayed a picture of me and my mom right next to it. Christmas 1989, I think. Yes, I’ve talked a lot about my fancy holiday grief lately. It started pretty early this year. I did my best to sit with my grief and let…
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Fancy Holiday Grief
I am a long-time griever. My mom was murdered in 2006 when I was 18 years old. I witnessed her being attacked. Over the last 16 years I have learned how to walk with my grief and become its friend, but it has many layers, and it’s a sneaky little bastard. That’s why I like…
Xo Megan Ashley 