Category: The Grief Chronicles
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The Good Death
CW: homicide, violence, grief I haven’t posted here in over a week, ahh!!! Bad Megan! I did do a few patreon posts about how ptsd has been showing up for me, and about how my mom’s murderer might get out in 2025 and how that’s affecting me. Oh, and I also found her hospital papers…
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Early Grief
Cw: grief & violence. Last night I got so depressed trying to write a little something about inner child healing. I decided not to write it at all, and got no words in yesterday. I ended up just really missing my mom and worrying I’ll never be able to tell her story or do her…
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Tiny Beautiful Things
CW: homicide, loss, grief. Last night I was soooo happy to see Tiny Beautiful Things streaming on Hulu. I absolutely adore Cheryl Strayed’s work since I read her memoir, Wild. It talks about the loss of her mom and the incredible grief journey she went on. Some of it hits too close to home for…
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Not ready to let go…
cw: my mother’s murder, murderer info. Hello again! Yesterday’s post was on Patreon, so members got to see that, if you’re not a member, what are you waiting for? You can join my patreon for as little as $1.11 a month which grants you access to all the exclusive posts I’ve ever written since 2020,…
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PTSD Triggers
CW: Trauma, homicide, ptsd. This morning was spent on the phone making dr’s and neurology appointments for my partner. I love making phone calls, but it’s always such a hassle dealing with insurance. I also did some work tasks and was motivated to write! Go me!
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Who is your anchor?
I’ve been thinking a lot about my mom as an anchor. Someone who tethered me into this world. When I didn’t know who I was, I could always look to her and be reminded. She knew me since before I was born, but she really knew me. You know some other people aren’t really seen…
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Merry & Bright
My girlfriend and I got a very small Christmas tree and displayed a picture of me and my mom right next to it. Christmas 1989, I think. Yes, I’ve talked a lot about my fancy holiday grief lately. It started pretty early this year. I did my best to sit with my grief and let…
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Unexpected Tears
My mom introduced this band to me. She bought the CD and played it for me in her honda civic. It must have been around 2003, three years before she died. She loved The Used, and because it came from my mom I thought “meh… whatever…”
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Fancy Holiday Grief
I am a long-time griever. My mom was murdered in 2006 when I was 18 years old. I witnessed her being attacked. Over the last 16 years I have learned how to walk with my grief and become its friend, but it has many layers, and it’s a sneaky little bastard. That’s why I like…
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2 ways I deal with grief right now
Over the last 16 years since my mom’s murder I’ve dealt with grief in many ways. First not at all, then kicking and screaming because I didn’t want to, then to a place of acceptance that I am in fact grieving, and will be for the rest of my life. It’s still not always easy,…
Xo Megan Ashley 